“Each of us actually believes that things should be the way we want them, instead of being the natural result of all the forces of creation.” Michael A. Singer When I finished reading ‘The Surrender Experiment’, I was filled with relief and gratitude that someone has already lived his life and provided a guide for me…
Category: Personal Growth
The way home
When I saw my mum broke down uncontrollably after my uncle’s funeral, I stroked her back gently with a silent thought: grow up, mum. In between the strokes I was engulfed by a deep sense of gratitude that I have a mother who expresses her love freely. It is in the vastness of this love…
How to practise self-love when the world is not going your way
There will be days when you feel stuck in the rut and go nowhere. It doesn’t matter how much you’ve done, how many self-help books you’ve read or how many inspirational quotes you stick on the mirror. I felt stuck when I kind of knew what I should want but I didn’t know specifically what…
What I learn from starting a podcast
A friend saw my frequent posting on FB and asked me why I started a podcast when he knew that there was no money involved. I didn’t tell him that I felt ‘called’ to do it, I wonder what he would say. After finished talking about the 12 chapters in my self-published book on FB…
Life is never about getting somewhere
I sat alone at the balcony of the chalet right next to a lake studded with lotus plant, smiling like a child while feeling connected to the trees, the chirping birds and the bright blue sky. Life was simple, blissful, just as it is. Being aware of my solitude, I thought, if I died right…
4 important life lessons we forget in the process of ’adulting’
I sat down with my legs crossed, eyes closed and a big smile ear to ear, feeling an outburst of joy that ran through my whole body like an electric current. I was in a silent meditation course. After an hour of meditation, we were instructed to sway our body with the rhythm of bamboo…
Love, Osho, Wild Wild Country
Osho came into my life in a non-linear chronology that was perfect to unfold the controversy and wisdom in this spiritual master. I started doing Osho Zen tarot card reading with my brother a year ago when he received the deck as a birthday gift. While I always got the insights I needed, I thought…
Love, right now
When I saw the news from my Facebook feed, my heart sank. I am not a loyal fan of Anthony Bourdain, but I enjoyed watching his shows. His humility, generosity and receptivity of differences often warmed my heart. I never thought such a strong character would be engulfed by the stark darkness to the point…
The next thing I do is not going to define the rest of my life
I entered an existential void after publishing a book that marked the end of a 5 years self-discovery journey. While the fulfilment of nailing a personal goal was sweet, the glorious moments passed in the blink of an eye. Having all the freedom in the world to create anything I want, I was lost in…
The pain and gain in uncovering the ugly truth
Some truths might hurt, but they set us free. After a peaceful governing power handover 2 weeks ago, all of us Malaysian realised that it was merely the beginning of an ‘ugly truth’ saga. The ex-PM who put us in this deep, deep shit of debt and corruption blamed the current PM for telling the…
Confession of a Malaysian millennial: what does overturning the government mean to me
When I watched Tun Mahathir signed the papers and swore in as our new Prime Minister on the TV, a surge of patriotism ran through my body. Malaysia had just created a world record — the oldest head of government in the world, he is turning 93 this year. When a leader at this age…
What being an underqualified and undereducated writer taught me about life
By copying and stealing from the pro, I started my career as a content writer without any experience and qualification. Writing has always been a passion until I came across my first paying gig that subsequently led to more jobs. As an undereducated and underqualified writer whose experience consisted only of personal blog writing, I…